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I was talking about the second pic you posted on its own on this page(blue shirt 2nd pic). IMO,id clean up the diet as best you can, eliminate dairy and grains...I do think in your case the ultra high trt dose for so long has messed w your thyroid to an extent.I think hcg was probably causing you to produce much more T than you thought it was and you probably at some point had E2 take over.. Now its gonna take some time to get back to normal, you kinda just have to accept that at this point. Im baffled as to how any doctor thought it was ok for your levels to remain so high for so long without intervening....
I have to say the last picture in the black shirt I wouldn't even think you work out....well not your arms anyway.
Actually if you were flexing in the second pic as well it'd probably look pretty similar.. Just saying.
NOT busting balls here....I promise....but how hard are you working at the gym? Did you do a cycle? Can't remember.
m_ob:
Another thing to consider is genetics. What does your father look like? How about your mom? Athletic when younger, etc? How were their physiques at your age? My dad is pretty lanky and does not "look" muscular. But he is pretty strong for his age. My mom has always carried a little bit too much fat, and I take after her in that regard. I am like my father in that I will always be kinda lanky and never have bulging muscles...but I am pretty strong. You cannot escape your genetics. It's almost laughable to me because my dad does not much visible bicep muscle, and my arms look identical to his. I can be plenty strong but not show much bicep at all.
A little while back when I was your age [Fuck I am feeling a tad old now] I did not look like a lifter at all, but I actually could bench press more weight than I can now.
But overall I have more muscle now and probably more overall strength due to TRT and more time for development. I'll try to fig up a pic of me at 20-21 when I was actually in much better health than now.
My point is that I think that men really continue to develop physically until they are into their late 20s. You may come around in time as you make the gradual transition from boy to man.
What you experienced at the beginning of TRT was likely abnormal due to your supraphysiological levels. Now on regular ol' TRT, it's time to come back down to reality. Take a look around at guys walking around your campus. Look at the average dudes working out in the gym. Do you honestly look and feel small and weak compared to them?
How do you feel overall besides this muscle stuff?
Well my dad's a little taller than me, but stocky and my mom's a lot shorter than me but a petite/solid slightly overweight look I suppose. I don't know. In regards to my size in comparison to other guys, I guess you could say I'm average, but average isn't what I'm looking for after owning the physique I did for over a year. I'm probably going to have to face the facts though, that without some sort of unhealthy addition, I will just have to slowly transition to where I need to be. Apart from that, I don't feel as energetic as I have before. I'm sluggish in the gym and I lack that drive that I had before. I'm thinking IM B-12 might help with some of that as well?
Welp, you're in college now. Are you staying out late and drinking at all? Are you in a cold/dark climate during the winter? That can slow your ass down for sure. Feeling down at all?
I guess you need to choose between...
(1.) Average physique and overall good health
-and-
(2.) Above average physique and the risks associated with maintaining said physique.
This is only my opinion, but I'm not sure that you have enough life experience yet to comfortably go along with option # 2. Priorities change over time.
