1st you are in the wrong place if you want affirmation. This is not the forum for you. Try Reddit. Its a populist site full of ninnies who like to sniff each others backsides and pat themselves on the back.
At 6" 190 (or is it 170?) your muscles should be popping already. Im same height, 200lbs and when I got to around 210 you could already see my abs and I had muscle definition everywhere else. Im no body builder but I do look athletic. I was 280 2 years ago and im much older than you are and had no roids or anything until this year but my weight didnt change. At 200lbs you can see a 6 pack easily and a lot more definition.
If you cannot see your muscles, then your weight loss likely resulted in lost muscle which brings diet and exercise into question unless you are doing it for another purpose...
According to your 1st post, "aesthetic physique without looking too huge or freakish" and reach "150lbs" and you are trying to avoid harsh roids while sticking to stuff like Anavar... Im not judging you nor putting you down, nor am I trying to humiliate you, but this sounds like you are transitioning male to female? Without "big" muscles and at that height and weight, and while taking low androgen roids, you will basically have an athletic-like female frame and would be ready for hips/breast augmentation. Its ok if thats the case, just say so, this is all anonymous anyway. But if that is the case, it would be a very different protocol than what male body builders would do. You would want to keep Test under control, and use less androgenous roids like Anavar or Primo and possibly Masteron, or Winstrol. You can still take more androgenous roids, but at lower dosage. For instance, plenty of women take Tren and at low dosage, sides are reduced.