Not exactly.
She just wants me to be at around 15-20% BF - like "bear mode" look.
She doesn't like abs or veins - nor she likes a completely shaved male.
And when I start to diet, I am a whole other person - I never believed her - up until my last cut. In retro perspective I've just been ruthless - chasing my goals - giving an F to everybody else and their opinion.
In my last cut I played w/ insulin and a million other experimental substances (Tesofensine, SLU-PP-332, 5-AMINO-1MQ) - she had been at work and some neighbour found me naked on the hallway - unconscious from low blood sugar... he called the ambulance and fed me some honey from some squeeze bottle or something - as they arrived my blood sugar been around 30. They rushed me to the ER and yea, wifey came, they told her I almost died - like 5 more mins and I'd been gone.
She begged me to stop cutting and out of despair told me she will get divorced if I don't stop. I told her "Okay" and continued to cut - thank god we did stay together but since then she is in fear of my ruthless behaviour and yea... I can understand that.
Also I've never been happy w/ my cutting results.
On a bulk I am too fat and got no muscle. On a cut I am too skinny and got no muscle. At least that is what my brain tells me.
I always wanted (still want) to look like Mr. O (Samson, Ruhl) in their off-season - humongous crazy massive - still somewhat visible abs - but yea - I know, I never will.
So I decided, as I only wear 4 or 5 XL Oversize by GASP - I'd rather look massive in those shirts (which I never ever take off, despite being at home) than "looking good naked" once a year on the beach. And looking "small" (relatively) in my clothes the rest of the year.
Sorry for that huge wall of text that most of you aren't interested in anyway - I just wanted to "defend" or at least justify my wife's "decision".
I also checked my stash - as I am low on Test - and switched my stack up to finally use all that leftovers of Deca I have....:
750 mg Nandrolone D
300 mg Masteron E
150 mg Primobolan E
600 mg Trenbolone E
1500 mg Testosterone E
( mast n primo just to counter that deca d*ck - and low dose cause I don't have that much left of it either

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