Want to become a monster After surviving death

[Hardtokill97]

Given what you've been through, and the certainty of some of your statements such as:

"All I know is I want to stay on & be on trt for my lifetime, I don't care about injecting I just wanna feel optimal & monstrous"

I won't pretend to understand what it is like to almost die, beat death, and then have the scars to contend with, and I am much older than you.

The best advice would be to start low & slow, continously monitor, and tweak as required. There is no magical dose or combination of substances that anyone can provide necessarily, as there are many variables to consider; most importantly though would be your idea of what is ideal vs. my ideal vs. Joe's ideal.

I am certain you've considered the potential repercussions and have weighed or balanced them against wanting a certain quality of life (or your ideal vision of what that means to you, and for you), so I would suggest engaging your Doctor/team and at least mitigate issues by eliminating substances that might affect you differently or with a greater degree of severity due yo your illnesses.
I am not providing advice, but if I were experiencing what you were, then I would want certain hormones and things such as Total Testosterone, free Testosterone, GH (as you had mentioned) to be at supraphysiological levels.
I might look into peptides such as Bpc 157 and TB 500 (to start) and see how/if those have the potential to alleviate any of my issues.
I might start somewhere in the 175mg to 250mg per week range of Test E or C. Maybe I would start GH in the 2UI per day range.
If i decided to try BPC and/or TB 500 I would probably go with something like 250 MCG x2 per day of BPC and 3 to 5 MG of TB 500 per week.
I would of course research all of these first. Then ensure the doses make sense for me. I would get blood work done first. I would advise my Doc first. As time went on, i would adjust, tweak, remove and add as I educated myself through both practical and theoretical.

This was kind of what I had in mind!

Would 2iu GH per day be enough?

Thank you for your message.

 

[RandomUser23]

Wishing you luck man. Hope that you get where you wanna go.

 

[MindlessWork]

Just keep a close eye on your health and don't take unnecessary risks.

 

[Jackedjtf]

This was kind of what I had in mind!

Would 2iu GH per day be enough?

Thank you for your message.

You're welcome.

Enough is a hard one to answer, but in fairness to you, I was giving you the minimalist approach. If I stand by my statement of what would I do in your shoes, I would start at 4 UI.
Also, if it applies here, ask yourself at what point does it become cost prohibitive, or money put towards other meds, substances etc.. this can often help guide your decisions.

 

[Hardtokill97]

Wishing you luck man. Hope that you get where you wanna go.

Thank you.
I appreciate your message.

 

[Hardtokill97]

Just keep a close eye on your health and don't take unnecessary risks.

I will do.

If I believe AAS will exacerbate my symptoms/health I will not do it to get bigger & stronger. I will do it without AAS. If it can aid me on my goals without significant health risk, I will do it.

In a previous comment I said " I want quality over quality out of life." Really & truly I want both, I want the sweet spot. This means I have to plan vigorously & precisely with any of these substances I may use to achieve what I want from my life & for my future family.

I'll keep doing my research