Hi there! Thanks for the reply
I'm 47, I pretty much have all the symptoms from low test, low motivation, libido is getting worse rapidly and harder to to keep an erection for a while. No energy to do anything and don't even feel like doing the things I used to love. My sleep is shit, I get up at 4am for work and go to bed around 8-9pm but cannot fall asleep, I have insomnia big time. I try to use magnesium, melatonin and sleepeze and it sometimes help. I'm also very depressed when I shouldn't but that has been going on for almost all my life but the fact that I cannot perform at work like I should and the state that I'm in makes me hate who I am even more.
I was getting fatter (skinny fat) and decided to get a gym membership in August and I'm still trying to be consistent but I'm not giving up. I almost lost 20 lbs just taking 1 hour walks after dinner at a very fast pace (120-130) steps per minute, around 3-4 days / week. I cleaned up my diet and stopped all junk food and quit drinking 1-2 litres of chocolate milk per day. I don't really count calories on paper but I try to have at least my weight in grams of proteins or close.
I also abused speed for the past 15 years and completely quit a year an a half ago. Alot of party drugs also. I was VERY sleep deprived very often not sleeping for 2-5 days and working on top of that. I read that abusing stimulants on a long period of time can also affect test levels.
I'm in Canada and don't have a doctor but found a site where I can get my own bloodwork (TeleTest.ca). I'm actually getting tested tomorrow but I saw the blood test requisition and I think I fucked it up when I filled out the form. There's things missing and I'll probably have to redo it again. At least I'll see if my test is low and if it is I'll have to redo it properly. I'm using ChatGPT to help me do this and figure out what is wrong with my body.