I just need to get my blood work more healthy somehow to permit higher drug use
Dude. I love you, but you are all over the place. I can see that from all the random bits of contradicting input you share. In on thread you are talking about getting noob gains because you've never trained your rear delts before, and in here you are saying your only obstacle to success is not taking enough drugs.....
Stop. Reevaluate EVERYTHING.
When people talk with me about not seeing progress despite thinking and feeling like they are working really hard for it, I give them this perspective:
There are 720 hours in a month
If you are in the gym for 2 hours, 6 days a week, .... thats 48 hours a month.
When you are held up the way you describe right now- it's time to focus on how you are spending the other 672 hours. That is where you will make the most impactful change. Fix the things that aren't conducive to your goals.
1. Get a food scale. Download the app called "MyNetDiary". Make a food PLAN for yourself and stick to it. Weigh everything you eat, log everything you eat, make it 100% accurate
2. If you are just now starting to train rear delts for the first time ever.... you need better programing. NOBODY should be dumping drugs into their body for performance enhancement if they have never even trained rear delts. Get a coach.... post questions in the bodybuilding topic on here, get an app...... whatever you need to do to build a real program, do it..
3. Make the easy things hard. Focus on your movement. Focus on your mind muscle connection. Learn to train in a way that is effective. Don't just do motions. Don't just move the weight. MAKE THE LIGHTEST WEIGHT YOU CAN GET STIMULUS WITH HARD.
4. It sounds like you are over weight, wanting to cut, wanting to add drugs, using Reta for a "cut" but expecting strength gains at the same time that you are in a cut level deficit..... You gotta pick one, and optimize for it. If you want to lose 8kg... then lose it. Create and follow a CUT SPECIFIC program and do it. Then, create a program to grow. Trying to do both ends you up with the exact kind of complaints you are expressing here. You don't need drugs to cut 8kg. Take a break. Get your bloods. Follow your cut program, and plan for your growth cycle. Have everything lined up and ready to fucking hit it.