^best post here.
I'm a recovering endurance athlete myself. I raced bikes for ~10 years. Kept strength training in for most of those years, but switched to just cycling during the pandemic - and got skinny AF.
Having spent years around high level (domestic and WT pro) cyclists, the unhealthy relationship with food is unsurprising to hear. These sports put a lot of unhealthy emphasis on weight. I don't believe I ever really unnecessarily restricted myself - but I've realized over the last 2 years that I also never sufficiently fed myself (personally, just never been a big eater). I'd say you are firmly in that camp as well.
I'm 5'11, my lowest race weight was usually around ~156-160lb without every trying to lose weight. At 3-4 days strength training and ~5-7 hours cycling a week, my weight would be more around ~170lb and my total daily calories around 2100 before I learned better (which came ~2 years ago). I upped that to ~2700 calories a day and physique improvements came along better. Fast forward a bit and I'm taking a break from cycling, doing 10-13k steps a day (several brisk walks), lifting hard 5x a week, 195lb and 12% bodyfat and my maintenance calories are ~3500. More importantly, my carbs are as high as 480g on lifting days where my workout is 75 minutes.
Cliff notes:
- Build your diet around .8-1g protein per lb of BW
- Eat more carbs. They aren't evil - they help. Your range should be 1.5-3g per lb of BW per day, depending on training needs (ex 1.5 for light/no training, 3g for hard days (2+ hrs training))
- As a rule, distribute your macros pretty evenly across your meals
- Your PWO meal will likely have higher carbs by ~20-50% compared to the other meals
- Fats will make up the remainder of calorie allotment, whatever that is, so long as you're not below .3g per lb of BW (the floor for general health)
Good luck!