For years, anytime you have the opportunity to, you gossip about him.
little personal things, specific info you heard somewhere from the grape vine and dry snitching yet at the same time, you seem to claim some sort of moral high ground by doing so.
you want people to believe you were close to him. You really want to appear to be "in the know", so you drop names and dates and type
things in a way to make people think you are something you are not.
Kind of like an Italian uncle that talks alot about the neighborhood and act like hes friends with everybody, he'll tell you things to insinuate he was some sort of mobster.
You've written literally pages about this guy, waxing poetic about him, his supposed motivations, inner thoughts, what you imagine
his likes and dislikes to be.
You sound like you're mad he didn't want to be your BFF and you didn't get that sweet seaside mansion you were fantasizing about.
Sour grapes.
By the way, in one of your very own posts you claim you were a felon on probation and that you were caught by U.S marshalls because of a snitch.
So now you talk about Panda to try to get him locked up, because he didn't give you what you thought you deserved?
Because he didn't fly you to China and hand you a big stack of cash for having an old account here on Meso?
your posts regarding him are unlike anything I've seen on a public forum, especially in 2024.
You do a lot of talking for someone who has been locked up
That's more like it. At least you took some time to go back and read. Bothers me when guys read 1 post or the posts in 1 thread and then make accusations and presumptions based on those snippets. You've done a bit more than the average hack who tries to cut his teeth and gain some clout in the Community by engaging me.
Thing is, I've been around a long time and know and have known so many who have shaped our Community that your best bet, if you want to gain some perspective on the history of our Community, is to simply follow along.
I believe that the best way to predict the future is to get a handle on the past. With people....the best indicator of future behavior is past behavior. Panda has proven these to be true....where he is concerned, anyway.
Dry snitching? Portraying myself to be something I'm not? First. I'm not posting anything that's not in the open already. His finding the Lord where many consider to be one of the most Holy pieces of Real Estate is a good thing. To make life changing decisions it often takes something like a career change and or a change of scenery...or moving more than a couple of hours from the place he had been living.
Panda let people know he's in Tibet. Why would you think I've got secret info? We aren't friends. We've never been friends. He isn't the kind of company I keep. I don't necessarily have problems with drug addicts. Even addicts deep in the throes of their addiction don't bother me. Those folks will usually want to be around others doing the things they are anyway? He isn't a happy dope feign, either. Miserable is a word that comes to mind. He's just a dick when he's on. Fake bravado. Tries to hard to make it seem like he's loving life.
I try to make it seem he and I are bff? Strung out sexual deviant when he's on one. When he's had brief runs of semi sobriety he isn't happy. Couple of years ago when he got out of rehab he had one of his employees who is a friend of mine ask me about availability and pricing of Suboxone or Subutex. Told the go between 8mg Buprenorphine 2mg Naloxone were going for $15 each. I was told he laughed and laughed..he said to keep them. He could get boatloads of methadone for next to nothing? So what? I wasn't trying to sell him anything? He came to me? I just gave him an idea of what he could expect if he was to buy in my neck of the woods. Fucking dumptruck.
Liter O'Test....I've been here since 2006. There are plenty of guys here and other forums who know me online and irl. I would expect a couple of them to call me out for being a phoney. Guys can be whoever they want to be online. However, when a guy has had the same handle for 20 plus years your real life starts to blend with your online life. Many know my real name and address. A lot of guys have my latest cell #. I text will a good # of people. I'm pretty real.
A guy who registered here 2 months ago is exposing me? Maybe I don't get along with Panda because we are so much alike? I'm a rail thin dope feign with tats on my head and face.
I'm like everyone's Italian Uncle wanting to impress everyone. I want too be seen as an insider or "In the know"? I'm Russian(Ukranian region is where my grandparent's came over from) and though I am an Uncle to 1 nephew and do have some stories I try to keep things real.
I wouldn't call myself and insider...though I do know a lot of guys who make things happen I'd say I'm more of a historian when it comes to the Online Steroid and Bodybuilding Community. Or so I've been called by some. Thing is, unfortunately, a lot of my stories can and have been verified because they are a matter of public record. See, you just got here. If you look deep enough into posts you'll find that all my prison paperwork has been checked and confirmed by respected members of the Community. I'm pretty much an open book.
I have to defend myself every couple of years when a new mouthy flash in the pan doubts the claims or stories I've spoken about. I don't mean to bore the average member who doesn't care to hear about this kind of stuff.
