Hello everyone,
I've heard other people talk about this and it's also something I've always thought of myself. That special kind of monster we all have to do what we do, to go the gym everyday and force ourselves to the brink, to train hard and constantly without fear or regret, to eat several meals a day sometimes forcing ourselves to do so, to cycle and inject hormones into our bodies, to not fear pain or soreness but rather welcome it. I think it was CT Fletcher or someone who said something along the lines of; someone who squats 500 lbs or more has to have something inside them, some beast, because a happy go lucky mother fucker doesn't do shit like that. I find it to be true. Someone who has no demons, no monsters lurking inside them, no pain inside, no anger in someway or another, can not put that much weight on his shoulders and lift it up. It takes a special kind of monster to drive that willpower. Something inside of us that even though your body might tell you that you're crazy, that monster inside you tells you to shut the fuck up and do it. I'm not a violent person by any means but I do recognize there's something there that drives me at the gym. I know it's not boredom, it's not because I want to look good or because of any narcissist train of thought and specially it's not because it makes me happy. Because more often than not doing what we do doesn't make you happy, it makes you sore, it gives you pain, it drains you both fiscally and emotionally, it drives you to the precipice of madness in that moment when you dive deep into your soul to gather strength for that last rep. To me that doesn't make me happy, for me that calms me inside, it feeds the beast and keeps it at bay. It calms that special kind of monster I feel inside. It drains the anger, the stress, the spitefulness of my ambitions, the pain of my failures and it drives me to keep going, to not give up in the gym or in my life. I see some guys around the gym that really shouldn't be there; they're always smiling and talking to their friends, they look the same year after year without making progress, just smiles and bullshit all the time and I think to myself, go home, be with your family, who are you fooling by being here, you're happy, be happy and let the monsters have their place you know? I don't look down upon or bother anyone who wants to workout but have a fucking purpose to do it. If you're going to do something do it right or don't do it at all. I also see people like me and I see it in their eyes, how they look at the weights with a love and hate relationship that only we can understand, that only the monster lurking inside of us understands; it's our mistress, the iron madden. It's the look of "don't fucking bother me with your bullshit because I am fighting me demons' , it's the "stay the fuck out of my way because i'm being a warrior against myself right now". We know who we re, we know who belongs....
Any who, sorry for the rant, needed to vent a bit and just wanted to know your thoughts about this and if anyone else thinks this way. Thanks for reading guys.
I've heard other people talk about this and it's also something I've always thought of myself. That special kind of monster we all have to do what we do, to go the gym everyday and force ourselves to the brink, to train hard and constantly without fear or regret, to eat several meals a day sometimes forcing ourselves to do so, to cycle and inject hormones into our bodies, to not fear pain or soreness but rather welcome it. I think it was CT Fletcher or someone who said something along the lines of; someone who squats 500 lbs or more has to have something inside them, some beast, because a happy go lucky mother fucker doesn't do shit like that. I find it to be true. Someone who has no demons, no monsters lurking inside them, no pain inside, no anger in someway or another, can not put that much weight on his shoulders and lift it up. It takes a special kind of monster to drive that willpower. Something inside of us that even though your body might tell you that you're crazy, that monster inside you tells you to shut the fuck up and do it. I'm not a violent person by any means but I do recognize there's something there that drives me at the gym. I know it's not boredom, it's not because I want to look good or because of any narcissist train of thought and specially it's not because it makes me happy. Because more often than not doing what we do doesn't make you happy, it makes you sore, it gives you pain, it drains you both fiscally and emotionally, it drives you to the precipice of madness in that moment when you dive deep into your soul to gather strength for that last rep. To me that doesn't make me happy, for me that calms me inside, it feeds the beast and keeps it at bay. It calms that special kind of monster I feel inside. It drains the anger, the stress, the spitefulness of my ambitions, the pain of my failures and it drives me to keep going, to not give up in the gym or in my life. I see some guys around the gym that really shouldn't be there; they're always smiling and talking to their friends, they look the same year after year without making progress, just smiles and bullshit all the time and I think to myself, go home, be with your family, who are you fooling by being here, you're happy, be happy and let the monsters have their place you know? I don't look down upon or bother anyone who wants to workout but have a fucking purpose to do it. If you're going to do something do it right or don't do it at all. I also see people like me and I see it in their eyes, how they look at the weights with a love and hate relationship that only we can understand, that only the monster lurking inside of us understands; it's our mistress, the iron madden. It's the look of "don't fucking bother me with your bullshit because I am fighting me demons' , it's the "stay the fuck out of my way because i'm being a warrior against myself right now". We know who we re, we know who belongs....
Any who, sorry for the rant, needed to vent a bit and just wanted to know your thoughts about this and if anyone else thinks this way. Thanks for reading guys.
