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Jin23

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Sup all!

Totally new here. Kinda funny starting from scratch on a forum, having zero posts and all, but I've always read through this forum and even ordered from some sources here, so it was time to try and register. Happy mods approved my account. Ty.

I'm 34, been lifting for 10 years, 3 of those have been me experimenting with androgens. Started off with test boosters, Mk, then ostarine, then some andros and finally pinned test. Now that I look at it, it kinda looks like your typical progression from natty to non natty hah. Funny how we all think we'are something special, but when you look at the pure pragmatic data; "you fit the pattern".

Currently I'm sitting at a natty 82kg's at 10bf (carb depleted). Can't remember when I was this small the last time. Last year was a real pain. Moved 3 times, worsened my anxiety and more importantly, regarding physique goals, worsened my insomnia. I went from 96kg, that was on a 500 test + 15 SD, to where I am now (off cycle). Was never above cca 14% bf in my life. Always had a six pack, albeit at last weeks of some bulks, it was more of a 4 ... 6 ish pack. So I've always been skinny. Eating is a problem, cutting is not. Now with the lock down I did, I guess, a mistake and started cutting. I knew it wasn't the smartest idea, but I have some kind of an inflammation in my gut and I had to lower kcal's. Also had to loose 2 - 4ks of bf. I reverted to calisthenics but that's not the same. That being said, I am keeping some things in my training routine. Most notably I am learning front lever (that chit is crazy healthy for scapular retraction, thoracic extension ...), piston squats (good for leg muscle imbalances) and planche (core). Also, focusing so much on calisthenics has brought me back to being more mindful of my movement patterns, keeping the body tight and the mind muscle connection. Gyms are opened here now, so life is starting to feel more normal, if you know what I mean, but boy did I loose some strength! So ... time to get back up and push some weight's like it actually matters.

Always trained like a powerlifter, but never got to serious about competing. I like movements more then I like being big and I mostly dislike isolation BB type of work. I train 3 x a week, full body. Weekly volume is distributed accordingly and some days have more volume towards push, pull or legs. I do block periodisation with mostly 4 to 5 week messocycles.

Regarding aas my motto now is keeping things in balance. With doses north of 750mg's (combined) I find it's to much for me. My sleep goes totally through the window and am mostly to aggressive. Being an artist, this is kinda not in my best interest. Keeping androgenicity low is key for me. But all of this still has thought me a lot. Body and mind is not a fixed state, there is no "my normal", rather, normal is a dynamic state between minimum and maximum bodily parameters. But I digress ...

I am not b/c-ing but cycling. I will not get over my natty limit nor do I want to, as staying there means cycling all the time and between cycles being on peps or smthn. That's to much, I need to feel normal at least 6 to 8 months of the year. I also noticed that relying to much on aas diverted me from actually focusing on movement patterns and the whole philosophy of having a "healthy" lifting life stile. Besides, in my opinion, if I can't add muscle with 200 - 400mg's primo, then I'm doing something wrong. Either training is not on point or I'm not recovering good enough. I realize bigger guys need such doses just to maintain, but I don't, so just pushing doses higher and higher makes me neglect what's important; the journey - having my self in balance - not the goal. And to end this long winded post, my goal now is first to get to my normal 86kg's 8 - 10bf physique and then try to get near 90ks and stay there.

English is not my first language. While I gave some time and energy to this post, to make it more articulate, this wont always be the case and will write in a more sloppy english rhetoric.

Anyway, glad to be here. Much love, peace!
 
My sleep goes totally through the window and am mostly to aggressive. Being an artist, this is kinda not in my best interest. Keeping androgenicity low is key for me. But all of this still has thought me a lot. Body and mind is not a fixed state, there is no "my normal", rather, normal is a dynamic state between minimum and maximum bodily parameters. But I digress ...

Yes I have felt that, like focusing too much on muscle and the skyrocket hormone levels that comes with it, you lose some intellectual energy and become more impulsive and animalistic.

Now I am preparing myself for a MSc course and I am making sure I am back to my best natty test levels. It´s a pretty challenging course that requires rigorous quantitative methodologies for problem-solving skills, I am definitely not doing a cycle at that time, they oppose each other.
 
Yes I have felt that, like focusing too much on muscle and the skyrocket hormone levels that comes with it, you lose some intellectual energy and become more impulsive and animalistic.

Exactly. And the "animalistic" part makes you train less mindful. I think that in general, aas can be conductive to some life periods - but they can be very destructive to other ones. Your whole attitude towards life, at least for me, tends to change when on cycle.

Now I am preparing myself for a MSc course and I am making sure I am back to my best natty test levels. It´s a pretty challenging course that requires rigorous quantitative methodologies for problem-solving skills, I am definitely not doing a cycle at that time, they oppose each other.

No no, definitely don't do it haha You would be sitting behind the desk, trying to learn or solve some equation (I presume bc of msc) and you would just be raging and thinking why is this important anyway ... Aas make you more extroverted, you divert more towards social interaction then peacefully studying. Ymmv, but for me, it's like that.
 
Welcome
Remember some people chase dosages because they are insecure that the gear is working...they need to feel those side effects.

Shorter dose, longer duration is my speed. Let the drugs do what they do in the background and ramp up dosages as you prepare to red line near competition. Then get healthy again.
 
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